| omg.. the new xanga is so confusing.. TOT.. it confused poor me.. and i am usually NOT that confused about most of the um.. stuff.. LOL... XD..
anyways... why does helen come to xanga.. cause SHE HAS SOMETHING TO COMPLAIN ABOUT.. like always... TOT..
like... how i don't know what i want to study... anymore.. *cries*.. i don't know what i should go into... (and it's so hard to type on my laptop... WHY haven't i gotten use to it yet... >.<).. why must life be so compacted (and why must firefox have spelling checks... it just make me want to check my words... ) *sigh*... lol.. anyways...
anything new about helen.. not really.. except she has a nice tv in her room.. which she stole from somebody.. heeee... *giggles*.. and i stole my bro's bed... man.. how many things have i stolen lately.. HAHAH.. j/k la.. now i am tired... but it's ok.. it's not like anyone reads xanga anymore... >.<....
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| *sigh*... why do i always feel like i am being used... >.<... i hate feeling that way.. but i can't help it.. ur so mean... but isn't that what love is.. ur suppose to let him do whatever he want.... but the last time i did that... it broke my heart... and helen was very sad for a long long time.. man i don't know anymore... i told meself lotz of times before that i shouldn't go back into a relationship.. it's too hard.. but... well.. i don't know.. but i really feel like i am being so selfish... since i want him to spend most of his time with me.. i feel like we are feeling more separated... helen dont' want to feel that way... but it seem like all the stuff he likes to do.. helen doesn't like it... maybe i should just think off it... and wait and see.. i love him so... but helen can't wait forever.....
*sigh*.. maybe i should just go back to school... going to be 21 in a couple of months.. i feel like i haven't accomplish anything in my life...
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| man.. why does it have to snow.... now i can't drive my car unless i fixed the tires or the break... but helen is poor... >O<.... I WISH THE SNOW GO AWAY... lol..
i remember how like last year i am like.. YAAA.. snow... :3.. but now.. i am like.. -.-.. man... go away snow.... u are affecting my going out nesss.. lol.. which i dont' think that will effect me much.. since i have my own personal butler.. :3.... WHO i dearly love... XD...
anyways... YES... few more weeks and people are coming back... helen is happy.. :3... that means i have more people to chill with... if it god damn stop snowing.... lol...
man.. helen want to go outside and make a snowman again... or my snow duck from last year... XD... lol.. -.-.. which people totally made fun of... TOT.. what kind of friends are u guys...
HELEN NEED TO SAVE MONEY... *demands*... >O<... man.. i'll be broke soon.. >.<.. must not use my next paycheck.... must... not... GAHHHHHAAAA... so hard.. TOT
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| man i don't know what's up with my life anymore... >.<... i am so confused about some stuff... i think i am just stress myself out too much...
i been neglecting my family.. cause i dont' want to deal with my bro's problem.. and i hate how left me with so much stuff to do... but at the same time... i know it's not good to ditch my family like that.. but my mom keep complaining to me about how disrespectful i am to them.. and how like i am breaking up the family.. maybe i am... i know this was going to come sooner or later... *sigh*... remember like one year ago.. everyone was fine.. my bro was still here... and now he is just gone... and more problems for me... and i know since i am hardly at home.. it's more pressure on my little bro... i just wish everything will go back to how it used to be.. but i know that ain't going to happen... why can't they just accept the fact.. it will never change...
*sigh*... i miss my bro... and i hate having arguements with my parents all the time... helen just wish that everything can just end now... >.< |
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| yes... it is finallhy halloween.. yaaa... :3... it so fun... though i didn't go out trick or treating... >.<... didnt' have a costume... so didn't go... *cries*.. i want my free candies la.. but its ok.. :3... fireworks was good enoguh... hee.. i was so much fun... setting them.. and gotting hit by one.. hahah.. but it's ok la... :3...
:3... *sigh*... this month is over... next month's payment is coming... i am so worried that i won't be able to pay things off... >.<... *sigh*... man... |
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