man i don't know what's up with my life anymore... >.<... i am so confused about some stuff... i think i am just stress myself out too much... 
i been neglecting my family.. cause i dont' want to deal with my bro's problem.. and i hate how left me with so much stuff to do... but at the same time... i know it's not good to ditch my family like that.. but my mom keep complaining to me about how disrespectful i am to them.. and how like i am breaking up the family.. maybe i am... i know this was going to come sooner or later... *sigh*... remember like one year ago.. everyone was fine.. my bro was still here... and now he is just gone... and more problems for me... and i know since i am hardly at home.. it's more pressure on my little bro... i just wish everything will go back to how it used to be.. but i know that ain't going to happen...

why can't they just accept the fact.. it will never change...
*sigh*... i miss my bro... and i hate having arguements with my parents all the time...

helen just wish that everything can just end now... >.<